There's never enough time to do all the nothing you want.

31 July 2007

2007-07-31T00:12:00.000+08:00

I'm leaving blogspot.
Heading off to livejournal.
lols.

New start.

28 July 2007

2007-07-28T22:50:00.000+08:00

Fyp madness.
Stayed overnight in school's mac lab to do last night, but i fell asleep. Dozed off on the floor with my jacket as the pillow.

Went home at 6 pm then came home, slept for 2 hours .. had dinner then back to fyp report. Taking a short break now, feel like eating again. zz. Sign of stress. I don't know if my report is lacking of anything or i'm just paranoid and making myself stressed for no reason at all.

But i seriously think the report is lacking of something but i don't know what. Back to school again tml, consolidate everyday. Seek help from doing the project plan because i have no idea how to do it. Have to do the site map and probably use case diagram, and our website is not even up yet!

Deadline, monday.
I swear, after a week after my fyp presentation .. havoc.
If i had the money, go drinking till there's no end. zz.
This fyp is killing me, killing everyone!

26 July 2007

2007-07-26T00:34:00.000+08:00

zzzzzzz.
after 26 missed calls, i picked up.
but still zzzzz.

mood unable to recover already.

no mood to continue doing my fyp site already, shall continue it tml. Do a good job for the website, report. I just want to care about my fyp now, my grades.

Shall go to bed.
My mood wouldn't get any better just by sitting around.

25 July 2007

2007-07-25T23:34:00.001+08:00

Fark, i lost my contact lens .. the left side.
And the worse thing is that i can't even recall where or when it fell out.
KNS.

Hope mum gonna pay for my lens.
zz. There goes 300 bucks. Poof!
Now i will go blind during the day except in classes when i wear my specs.
-.- Or wear my kuku specs, looking extremely kuku although everyone tells me that i look fine.
ROARS.

And that bloody ass is not picking up my calls.
After giving him 12 calls, i gave up.

24 July 2007

2007-07-24T00:36:00.000+08:00

Forget to mentioned that i had a sort of bad encounter with these bunch of ah bengs on fri night while i was on the way to clarke quay.

Long story, but thank god i called ben and chatted abit and they left me alone. gosh. Nerve-wrecking.

22 July 2007

2007-07-22T22:25:00.000+08:00

woho!
Finished Harry potter, last book of everything.

Forgot to mentioned, mum strike 4D and was her birthday today. Went out shopping and i got two tops from zara and nothing much due to time. Mum also got loads of perfume as gifts? .. hahas, and i got this Blvgari one, the same as what me and kang got for man tou for her birthday. Mum wanted to give me another bottle but the smell of it was kinda too strong for my liking.

21 July 2007

2007-07-21T20:33:00.000+08:00

Feeling so tired now, even thou i just woke up at 7 plus.
Reached home at around 9 this morning.

Was supposed to go out with some classmates to celebrate bdays. But some felt that it was too late and pulled out last min. Leaving a few of us, so the few of us which was me, ben, jack, nic, darren and darren's friend came. Was at clarke quay at around late 11 plus with ben and we slacked at mac, then waited around for the rest. Went to mos, entered at around 2? Drank a little and headed to smoove for a little dancing. Dj was kinda sucky, music was only so-so. But the music started getting better at around late 3 plus, madness all the way till 5 when the lights came on and headed out. Slacked outside while waiting for the first train to arrive. Saw keming at mac and on the dance floor, saw hui ru and her fren walking round smoove too. hahas.

Then went to mac and slacked around for breakfast with ben, while waiting for my insurance agent to arrive at 830 then after which i finally went home, took a shower and dozed off to lala land!!

Didn't really rest at all, woke up at 630 on friday with about 3 hours of sleep then chiong for dinner with kang at west mall then back home, shower and out again to clarke quay. Alot of walking and alot of dancing that night. Funny thing was that during the last few songs, i felt my stomach making so much rumbling noise. hahas.

19 July 2007

2007-07-19T23:25:00.000+08:00

Busy like mad lately.
Rushing for fyp, rushing for filming.
Staying back till late hours in school almost everyday, waking up early everyday even for Wednesday, sat and suns.

Madness, but it's going to be over soon.
1 more week to end of fyp then worry about presentation. And done!
Then comes my pp to do then i guess the second fyp.
Everyday is madness, waking up so late, rushing like mad.

Like for today, i woke up at 8 and reached class at around 920 when lesson starts at 830.
gosh.

Gonna rush my fyp report too.
Loads of things to be done.
Dive IG stuff too ... planning to do.

Last min stuff tml.
Might or might not go join the rest tml night.

15 July 2007

2007-07-15T01:03:00.000+08:00

Fyp sucks.

All these last min planning of meetings.
Screws everything up.

Genting in august?
Diving in sept?

Fark. Where the hell am i going to find all these money.
Saving like mad for the genting.

Keep saying i'm rich rich, telling me sales are everywhere. I said, that i have no money to shop and you ask why so poor lately, though you very rich. Confirm cannot be poor. Fark.

Nothing to say.

2007-07-08T19:59:00.000+08:00

Mad week.
Going to have 3 UTs this week.

Had a mad last week, i reached home at 10+ pm everyday! Then friday, after my fyp meeting.. went to meet some classmates for drinking session and reached home at 4 am! Then sat, went to east coast park for bbq and reached home at 5 am. -__- And i had fyp meeting today in school. zzzzz.

Fyp is madness.
Think i'm going to skip my diving training on tues. =/
=x MIGHT have a drinking session on tues night.

I didn't know how it happened but it took place anyways.
And it was pure madness.

03 July 2007

2007-07-03T08:54:00.001+08:00

All's well again.
Talked last night and everything is alright already.
=)

02 July 2007

2007-07-02T00:05:00.000+08:00

zz.
kt wanted me to help him get movie tickets tml.
-__-" I don't want to meet him when i'm out with him, i know how he feels towards about kt.

everything irritates me now.
i don't like to explain stuff especially i know i have explained it before and it's your fault that you didn't get it so don't expect me to repeat it again.

fyp fyp.
fyp sarks.

Although there's nothing much wrong with my team but i don't feel like sticking to the same team again for next semester.

I feel like taking Sports and Exercise Psychology or Sports Business for my elective instead of Sales management for next semester. =/

30 June 2007

2007-06-30T13:59:00.000+08:00

Was supposed to have fyp meeting at 830 today but i was simply too tired to wake up plus the bloody coughing madness. Told them that i'll skip this meeting. It sucks like hell to be sick, can't eat this can't eat that.

I don't want to rush things.
Because i'm not even sure what i want.
At least let's wait and see how things goes, i wouldn't drag it for long either. It wouldn't be fair but if i can't be sure and i can't be sure whether i can commit then i wouldn't step into one. Kinda confusing.

And i can't sms kt now without thinking about what he said.
zz.

28 June 2007

2007-06-28T20:37:00.001+08:00

Sick is damn sick.
It makes no sense if you read it. hahas but who cares.

He accompany me to the doctor today after a light meal and he asked it again. But i told him, that i thought that we decided on having more time. I don't know, i just don't feel as if i'm mentally committed? I feel as if i just can't commit? ken says i'm too playful. -.-" i think it has no relation at all whether i'm playful or not. it's a different matter!! If i can't commit then i wouldn't want to do it.

Ahhh.
Madness.

I've no freaking idea on what to do at all!
This is madness.

27 June 2007

2007-06-27T11:34:00.000+08:00

Fark.

Now i got a bloody headache+slight flu+mad cough.
And i gotta go for fyp soon.
faints.

2007-06-25T17:26:00.000+08:00

Everything is good now.
No specific details because i only want a few close friends to know what really happened.
But he knows and we talked about it nicely although it felt like each of us going to zz. We're going to give each other more time and see how things goes. If it was meant to be then it will happen eventually.

But i didn't know that hiding my sms from him, makes me feel bad. I was just smsing casually to a friend but it's my habit to not let people take a look at what i'm smsing. And he knows that i always keep my feelings to myself, resulting in him not knowing what i think or feel.

Alright, no more. =x
We are still good friends now.

24 June 2007

2007-06-24T23:09:00.000+08:00

He says he feels that i'm not alright.
And i think that he somehow knows things aren't well.

24 June 2007

2007-06-24T21:39:00.000+08:00

I don't need cold water now.
I just need support.
Just be there, no need to say anything.

fark.

24 June 2007

2007-06-24T18:45:00.000+08:00

Madness yesterday.
Sentosa during the day till we left around late 8 plus.
Went to bugis hawer for dinner then at some cafe, where we had some drinks. One bottle of vodka and three mixers. About 7 of us.

Played the 7-up drinking game.
Abit mad, ... ben drank less then me and he KO and went off to sleep and threw up like mad. -__-" They keep trying to sabo me, i think i kenna 5 cards of half glass and alot of 3 sips. .. For the last few rounds, we played with pure vodka with water because we didn't had any more mixers left. .. That one was yucks! I drank like 1/4 of 1.5 ml of it. -__-"

Lucky all i felt was head throbbing abit but after we left the cafe, i sat by the roadside because i felt something was going to come up because i drank the last few rounds quite fast then ben threw up beside me. -.- After resting awhile, i was okay already. Reached home .. went to sleep. The guys were saying that for a gal who drank so much and still fine, i'm quite good. ahahas! Just that i become abit of tomato-like after a few rounds. =/

After everything happened, friend in cab told me that he's very committed when he has a girlfriend. zz. And i still got no idea why he suddenly sms and said sorry. -__- I want to say what i want but yet i know how much it's going to affect him and i don't know how. When he asked me if i was happy anot, i really can't answer? No is not right but saying yes .. the word just can't come out?! It's not even my heart felt words. And his nick .. 'you made me happy' .. i don't know why i feel so stress. I feel as if i'm doing things just because he's my boyfriend not because he's someone i like and so i want to do so. =/ I know being loved is better then you loving someone but ... god la. Maybe i'm just not ready.

23 June 2007

2007-06-23T01:45:00.000+08:00

The new mtv of good charlotte is super nice!
Dance floor anthem. Great song. =D

Went to zoo with my kukus today, got in for free! Because a family had 3 extra free tickets and approached us and gave us! Woho!! Many thanks!!! Got abit lost here and there, kept making rounds and rounds back to the same spot. -.- Everything was madness. Fun fun fun!!

Came back home, showered then went out for dinner at fish & co.
Don't know why i was so hungry. zzz.
Ate kinda more then usual.

Cab there and back!

Alright, sentosa tml!
=)

21 June 2007

2007-06-21T19:37:00.000+08:00

omg la.
-__- He asked me whether if i was happy with him. I replied don't know. hahas. And he kept asking why why why! Faster re-direct the question back to him, and he said yes. Then later while waiting for the train, he asked about that day then i told him that i already sort-of knew and expected it already then he kept smiling. -.-" Asked him why keep smiling and laughing like mad then he said because he's very happy.

-.-
Makes me feel kinda zz.
Friend asked what am i planning to do, i have no idea.
We had dinner, and just chatted like how we used to chat in the past. I don't know why but i prefer times like those instead of the holding hands blah part. =/ I know he's nice to me but i seriously don't feel as much as what he does. It's not like i don't like him. I do but it's just abit?! I know it's just 4 days, and we can still expect more but there's just this weird feeling in me that's just different. Everytime i know that he feels happy just by being with me, i feel as if i'm deceiving him.

Everyone says he's a nice guy and i know that. He's so afraid of me, getting angry that he will do anything to avoid it. Some say nice or not, it's up to the feelings. But i feel 50-50. One part is to ask for a time-out and the other is to just hold on and let him be happy, don't hurt him.

I don't want to bluff him as a friend but i don't want to hurt him as a boyfriend.
I want things to work but yet i can't make things work.

-__-
Single, not single.
There's always something to be troubled about.

There's another mr nice out there who treats me almost the same as he does. But this isn't important nor it will affect anything.

20 June 2007

2007-06-20T21:15:00.000+08:00

Alright, i'll be nice.
=) I don't suppose that you'll meet someone who treats you nice so often and yet it works too.

Kt said he wanted to give me the pull & bear towel but didn't.
hahas.

It's too fast to say anything
but he always says some stupid stuff that makes me laugh.

Some comments from friends made me felt a little down.
Is this how they see me as?

19 June 2007

2007-06-19T22:00:00.000+08:00

Feel a little kinda stressed with him.
=/ it's like having a expectation bar but i know it probably doesn't exist.

Was having loads of thoughts during my long shower then i came online and saw his friendster .. make me feel even more zz.

He loves me more then i do.
He gives more then he takes.
Mine is just a tiny fraction of everything.
And it makes feels like that i'm bluffing him and i don't deserve him. -.-
god.

All these weird feelings.
Sometimes, i get this feeling that we are better off as friends. =/

19 June 2007

2007-06-19T14:17:00.000+08:00

He's abit too over 'pda'?
lols.

Feels kinda weird.
Something's wrong, i don't know what.
I feel that he's too nice. -__-"

The actions are fine but when there's too many people.. uneasiness creeps in. =/

19 June 2007

2007-06-19T00:23:00.000+08:00

hahas!!
Alright, i'll keep this short. =x

I'm attached. =)

And to think, just a few hours before everything happen .. my friend was asking if i was still single and i answered yes. lols. So much changed. ahahas.

// Telling friends. hahs.
Just close friends now. And everyone wants to see how he looks likes.
-__- Seems as if he's some celebrity.

17 June 2007

2007-06-17T23:07:00.000+08:00

Someone asked me if i was dating now.
HAHAs, such a vague term. I don't even know what to answer, so i assumed that he was asking if i have a boyfriend so i said nope.

I think everyone is lost.

Anyways, told ken about that matter.
He had a slightly different take on it but the conclusion was still the same as the rest.
Ask me be careful ah! -__-

Although his way of saying was more kuku.
School tml!

17 June 2007

2007-06-17T00:43:00.000+08:00

Everyone tells me the same thing.
huiting, corrine and kang kong.
Maybe i trust guys too much. =/

15 June 2007

2007-06-15T22:46:00.001+08:00

Suddenly it feels like nothing and it was all just a dream.
Seems like a dream but i know it really happened and took place.

I prefer yesterday at least there's no aftermath thinking.
Things seem abit blurred now. What is what and what is not.
Don't know what means what.

It might seem sweet but i rather things are certain.
At least i don't have to wonder this and that.

And i'm not going to be a idiot and ask.
Because what if it's not what it is? -__-

15 June 2007

2007-06-15T00:04:00.000+08:00

Unexplainable things.
But i don't know what it all means. Is there a possibility? or is he just playing around? But yet i think that it's too much if he's playing around. =/

I just feel that when things happen, every thing seems to fall in place. And it just feels right.

Finally going to rest at home tml!
Gosh, i haven't had my full day rest at home since the holidays.

Woke up late today, was supposed to meet them at 9 am.
And i woke up at 845 am. -____-

13 June 2007

2007-06-13T00:57:00.000+08:00

Just casually mentioning that towel at pull & bear and i think he's planning to get it for me. omg. -__- I seriously hope, he wouldn't do so!!

60 bucks for one towel.
Not worth it? But still i love it.
hahas.

sian.
Bought some random stuff today.
Wanted to get the green bikini but no more, so got a blue one instead.
ahahs! Better then the current brown one i have. So dull!

12 June 2007

2007-06-12T00:46:00.000+08:00

Super don't like to repeat what i have said when i know i've said and explained things very clearly and simple. And i don't like explaining things too much either.

Shopping tml.
Let's hope i can get some stuff.

Now i'm hesitant about mos on wed because i have to reach school by 11 on thurs.
Friend asked about tml thou but i'm going out already. gosh.
Why is nothing working out!!

Might be having a pri school friends gathering on sunday!

10 June 2007

2007-06-10T20:34:00.000+08:00

Now i know this time, it refers to me.
But now i wonder if all are the same. =/

Some directions?

10 June 2007

2007-06-10T19:10:00.000+08:00

I wonder if i had lost a friend because of this.
No more mad chatting, no more mad talking.

But it's seriously has nothing to do with me.
I'm still as normal, i didn't let what happened affect.

Feel like going mos on wed night.
=/ But corrine they all aren't free. Anyone wants to go?! =D
So much to do, i still want to do my shopping.
Saw a few pair of nice slippers in cleo. Maybe i'll go get the paul frank tee and the paul frank slipper too.

I just bought a new tee online last night.
hahas. But no confirmation email yet.

9 June 2007

2007-06-09T22:42:00.000+08:00

Back from town.
Never really did much, walked around and looked for shades. Then he found his shades at pull & bear then went to coffee bean and slacked.

And we actually forgot to have dinner! zz.
Was walking back home then i remember that i haven't had my dinner. lols.
Same case with him too.

-__-
Peeling of skin sucks.

And i miss diving already.
=(

Esp the latest trip, total madness!!

Relaxed life.
Staying in kampung like huts.
Everything so simple. Wake up, dive .. eat .. sleep .. dive.

One good thing about being tanned is that it hides my dark eye circles.
hahas! I can basically just go out without concealer. wahahas. But now i'm peeling like mad, and he made things worse by peeling more and more off my face then i came home and continued peeling. -__- Let's hope this peeling process will just hurry up and i can get it over with.

9 June 2007

2007-06-09T15:12:00.000+08:00

It's such a big coincidence.
hahas!

Was going to wondering whether to ask friend out then who knows, he smsed and asked! lols. I was already on the verge of completing my sms when i received his sms.

8 June 2007

2007-06-08T22:43:00.000+08:00

Meeting new friends. Chatting with them like mad over msn.
But i seem to be in a daze for these few days, something to think about lately.

Diving trip was pretty mad this time.
Can't really explain down in words, pictures speak a thousand words and i haven't got the pictures yet. But four gals taking a total time of 15 mins to shower is a pretty good record. hahas. First two that showered had to come out, wrapped in towel and change thou. And my towel was damn short la. -__- Thank god i'm short or else i would be covering nothing.

Saw 3 stingrays! Handicap turtle. Giant Grouper, Giant Moray Eel. Angel fish, trigger fish, parrot fish, bumphead fish and etc etc.

We saw this fisherman catching this fish, i think it was a barracuda? And it was as big as a sword fish! Damn big la. Almost as tall as me.

Too bad i have filming project next week or else i want join friend go trekking!!

And i know what i miss most when i go diving.
I miss drinking milk the most!

7/6/07

2007-06-07T23:17:00.000+08:00

Will it ever happen?

The missing gets more and more, wishing you were there in tioman too but i'm still not sure. Do i miss you as a friend or something more then that?
They say it will happen but my gut feelings tells me that it's just wishful thinking and nothing more despite all that happens. I probably shouldn't think so much and just let everything happens the way that it will go. I don't want to risk anything.

Fyp tml. =(

And i have a case of bad sun burn.
My face is super red!

7/6/07

2007-06-07T00:07:00.000+08:00

Just got back home.

Totally burned to the max. My face hurts, too much sun tanning. =x And i got funny tan lines again!! zzz. And it's quite serious this time? The difference is huge.

Fun fun dive trip this time.
One of the boat crew was nice too. =) Said nice stuff which i most probably wouldn't say out here, hahas, too pai sey. But simple english makes it sweet enough. hahas.

I came with no bruises as promised to someone except for a minor bruise on my head but i got a few cuts on me thou. =/

Might be going to tioman again next week! But must see whether i can squeeze in the time with my filming project stuff. Instructor said that if i'm helping out then i don't need to pay. hahas.

Two people's nicks that i know concerns me.
zzz. Going to sleep soon.
Had hardly any sleep and was drinking for the last night.
Shall blog more about the dives tml or something.

04 June 2007

2007-06-04T05:49:00.000+08:00

Super sleepy i am.

I slept at 3 plus and now i'm awake at 5 plus!
zzz. Body feeling so sleepy.

Thank god mum's driving me to school or else i would be now on my way to school. -.-

=x
divers create the most unexpected couples.

01 June 2007

2007-06-01T01:27:00.000+08:00

I half feel like going out and watch a movie tml but another half of me feels like going home to rest instead. =/

And it's like 1:29 am and i need to sleep soon because i need to wake up by 7 tml!
zz. Why must have test tml!! Or else i would happily pon.

The things that you do.
Actions. I've no idea what is going on.
I know it wouldn't happen but still, everything doesn't makes sense.
It's just getting harder.

31 May 2007

2007-05-31T22:53:00.000+08:00

My dad is being so -__-".

Mum was counting money from his pay then i was there then he just said that when we all get married next time, must hold an interview and if the pay is below 8k then can't married.

-.-""" If THAT was really the case then might as well give up hope.
lols.

And he wanted to give me some us cash then mum took it away and gave me SG instead. =.= So i'm like poorer by 50 bucks. =(

And i feel like shopping like mad!
It's the GSS period, nice things fly off fast!

31 May 2007

2007-05-31T01:00:00.000+08:00

Things that i can't understand.
Can't figure out why.

Friends problems. My problems.
It's like what-the-fuck.

30 May 2007

2007-05-30T14:56:00.000+08:00

I feel so frustrated when i can't figure things out and i don't have the answers that i want!!

30 May 2007

2007-05-30T00:51:00.000+08:00

Just a quick summary.

Watched pirates today.
But missed the first 5 mins. Nice story, kinda touching too. Stayed back after the credits and they showed ten years later. Wanted to have another round of movie but there was no movie to watch already. Walked to ps and had LJS.

Walked to somerset and took train home.
Not enough time for ben to reach home so he waited below my block and i went up to take batt and he did his rj then put in my ipod then i submit for him. hahas.

zzz.

28 May 2007

2007-05-28T22:29:00.000+08:00

Super peaceful.
No more mad smsing although smsing ht now. But it's different, just feel so relaxed and peaceful. Gonna pay for diving tml! And off to diving next week. yay!

I really hope that it wouldn't happen.
But everything is making it so hard.

28 May 2007

2007-05-28T14:32:00.000+08:00

Chalet over the weekends.
I was pretty tired during the chalet.
Haven't really slept much since thurs and friday's trip to town was really gosh. I was taking so much naps in between and they kept tickling me awake. Tortured me by pressing on my blue-black. zz. Sunday morning, they woke up at 8! I heard them but i dozed back anyway .. then they called me to go out at 10 for breakfast, i wanted to skip breakfast and just continue sleeping but all that mad tickling. zzz. And i'm not a very morning person, i need time to wake up. =(

Lazy to blog about everything.
But it's just pure madness can.

Loads of things happened during the chalet thou. Not at the chalet but thru my smses and stuff. Something made me so pissed can. I told him that i can't sms him everyday because i don't just sms him just alone, i sms other friends too. Then he sent this sms to his friend but accidentally sent to me, he said it was about his ex thou. -__- what's the chances that his ex and me saying the same thing like 5 mins ago! -__- He smsed again on sunday morning again but i didn't reply. Was smsing other friends instead, was smsing ben and ht. =x And he called a few times too! wah lau, he asked if i felt that he was too sticky. I wanted to reply ya, but i just said ok la. -__-

Can't stand friends who stick to me like some super glue, sms me 24/7. Have to talk 24/7. I never reply one sms then send one or two more smses. -.-"

26 May 2007

2007-05-26T10:21:00.000+08:00

Wth.
So freakin tired and my arms are still aching.

Chiong home after school then chiong out to town and tried to get tickets for pirates. =( Fully booked so waited for ben to come after his fyp meeting. I walked so much can.

Shaw -> Cine -> Shaw -> PS -> Picturehouse -> Marina Square -> Esplanade -> Clarke Quay.

-______-"
Somewhat of a summary of where we walked.
Watched blades of glory at 00:15! Ended at around 2 am.
It was damn funny la. Laughed like mad.
Then he wanted to do his rj first so went to esplanade there and he did his rj then sat there and chatted for awhile. Then walked to Clarke quay to get my night rider. =x He accompany me all the way home then took cab home. -.-" Feel abit bad. Was trying not to fall asleep on the bus and talk to him instead. My eyes were closing and the contacts were like wtf?! From 7 am till 4 am. That's how long i wore them. @_@ With no eye drops no nothing.

And his shoulders were like breaking and still want to stuff my jacket inside.
@_@ I think i massage until my arms also ache!

Eurgh. Now i have to wake up at this time so i can do my rj and then pack the bag for chalet then go off and meet them.

24 May 2007

2007-05-24T23:19:00.000+08:00

Just back from diving.
Was going home soon then i saw ben, so he waited awhile.
Had to wait for greg to come pick up the equipments ... left then walked to the hawker centre across but feeling kinda hot so decided to go cwp instead. -__- Food court was almost closed, only one stall was open! Gosh.

Kuku things happened. =x
Not going to blog about it.

My palms are damn freakin painful.
Can feel the strain just by closing them.
Tml, my arms and back cfm die too.

// Somthing random and unrelated.
I feel happy when i'm with you. I want you to be happy, i feel upset when you are. But i don't have that mad feeling with you. So what is this feeling?

23 May 2007

2007-05-23T00:17:00.000+08:00

I really don't want to react this way but somehow i am.
Slightly pushing away further, i don't want him to have any hopes. I sense that there's abit something wrong. Abit only thou.

About 'wanton' .... i don't know la.
Being happy is one thing. Liking is another.
If life was that easy.

I think only time can tell. He said that he will wait around thou. -__-

21 May 2007

2007-05-21T22:39:00.000+08:00

I'm feeling so much better already.
and that evil wesly keeps asking me to call him. zzzzz.
Have to listen to his craps again. =(

21 May 2007

2007-05-21T18:02:00.000+08:00

All farked up matters.

I don't want to believe that it can all happen.
It was a great day today, sushi ordered and ate in school.
But now this whole shit is happening.

I'm going to have a chill-out session later.

20 May 2007

2007-05-20T16:06:00.001+08:00

Omg, i only did two scenes in one hour!!

And my attention is straying already.
=( I got seriously short attention span.

20 May 2007

2007-05-20T00:09:00.000+08:00

Went to chinatown with sze and geok today, bought some stuff as birthday gift for friend! Then went to vivo alone and walked around, wait for time to pass .. then went to find ht after her work and went to newton and eat!

Damn spicy ah!
Stingray and squid. Both spicy. zz
But i improved! only one cup of sugar cane, normally i need to order two. =(

Madness.
Loads of cockroach stuff happened.
zzz.

hahas, he actually offered to come by and accompany me for the 1 hr plus but i felt weird so i declined. hahas. everything's strange! i'm just taking everything as it comes. i don't want to think too much.

18 May 2007

2007-05-18T23:42:00.000+08:00

Bloody day ah!
Met module chair after ut, all because of that day.
zzz. Don't care much, what's done is done.

Phone went sot.
Changed to some old phone. =x
Don't know whether to use that phone tml or my own phone .. later my phone crash again then i will faint!

Going chinatown tml. =/
Then going to meet fren for dinner! hahas.

My bill is going to burst this month!
Have to send phone for servicing too! And lost the warranty stuff, probably going to pay! Gosh. All bad things come together and leave together!

Went down for dinner just now.
That kuku ken! Add so much chili into my bowl!
Flaming bloody damn hot la! wah lau.
was wah lau-ing away the way. lol.
but abit shiok. lols!

17 May 2007

2007-05-17T22:20:00.000+08:00

Hahas.
Madness today.

Anyway avan's birthday today!
Smsed him today and realized that he was only sitting a few tables in front of me. hahas! Saw him after school with his fyp team mates then later at the mrt there, called him! =x

Nothing much ah.
-__- And ben was massaging my leg until i felt so relaxed and almost fell asleep. hahas! Damn shiok sia. But sometimes too hard, wah then damn pain!

2007-05-16T22:55:00.000+08:00

You Are Corona

You don't drink for the love of beer. You drink to get drunk.
You prefer a very light, very smooth beer. A beer that's hardly a beer at all.
And while you make not like the taste of beer, you like the feeling of being drunk.
You drink early and often. Sometimes with friends. Sometimes alone. All the party needs is you!

What's Your Beer Personality?

hahas! some parts are true. =x

16 May 2007

2007-05-16T22:32:00.000+08:00

Wah lau.
Feel like ponning tml.
Not going for diving tml, some certain *um* reason.

Now the only thing that's holding me back from ponning is the fyp meeting after school itself. zzzzz. What a great motivation. -.- I really don't feel like going ah! But i think i will just go. zzzzz.

Friday want pon also can't!
Got ut after school.
Super sian.

16 May 2007

2007-05-16T20:06:00.000+08:00

Probably loads of things going on lately.
Feeling kinda wtf lately, easily too.

Was just so #$@$# the other day that i just kept quiet all the way. Mad at things that i don't think i normally would be mad at. Maybe just slightly a little irritated. But those who know me, will know. Friend commented that i keep too much things to myself, doesn't know what's going with me. But it's not that i don't want to say .. but i don't know how to say?

Was having some talk with old friend just now, hahas .. talking about changes and stuff. She thinks i talk more now?! hahas, and more friendly and outgoing now. lols. Probably true. =x I take the first step to talk to strangers and stuff like that. Get to know more new friends is shiok but old friends that you grew up with .. bond there.

Went out for awhile just now and met mr wanton.
lols. Nothing much. =x

Chalet next week!
Can't wait to see my friends, even thou i only know a few people there but it'll be wtf if i don't go because of this reason =) Loads of catching up! Must hold on toe my gal friends, hahas i don't have alot already. Can't afford to lose any. =|

And i realized most people have this mentality that my boyfriend must be handsome and rich. zz. I just want someone who looks well enough for me and is willing to spend money on stuff. If he can't ... zz then i better love him like mad.

=x Going to find more new songs!

16 May 2007

2007-05-16T00:56:00.000+08:00

Wesly is damn funny and kuku. =x
And he says i looks 14 to 16. wtf?!

Don't know whether to go buy rash guard anot!

15 May 2007

2007-05-15T22:43:00.000+08:00

went eski bar today with geok, melia and sze.

Nice cosy place but it's abit cold la. My feet and hands had no cover?! So they suffered, hahas and in the freezer area .. can practically see the air that u breathe out!

Drank chocolate martini then later tequila pop. After that tequila, my whole face started feeling very hot la! Then get red then redder! Machiam like lobster. lols. Never once, i drank and my face never get red. zz.

And the smell is damn strong la.

15 May 2007

2007-05-15T00:44:00.000+08:00

Some random comment by friend.
He says i doesn't look the type who drinks. hahas! And clubs. =x I seldom club btw.
He says i look sweet,cute and sporty. hahas!

Not i type one ah, is friend say. =x

Some random thing again.
Friend's friend wants to know me.
hahas. damn funny ah. =x

Don't care, just gonna wear some black tee with black jeans tml.

2007-05-14T22:39:00.000+08:00

You Are Ernie

Playful and childlike, you are everyone's favorite friend - even if your goofy antics get annoying at times.

You are usually feeling: Amused - you are very easily entertained

You are famous for: Always making people smile. From your silly songs to your wild pranks, you keep things fun.

How you life your life: With ease. Life is only difficult when your friends won't play with you!

The Sesame Street Personality Quiz

hahas! quite true ah. =x
I know i'm easily amused by alot of small silly things. -__-"

13 May 2007

2007-05-13T22:09:00.000+08:00

hahas.
Got a new gang.
=x

The Mr.men and Little Miss gang.
hahahs.

And they keep changing for me. -__- from miss late to miss naughty to miss trouble.

// Don't know what to talk to him about. =/ And his replies, hahas kinda half-hearted. Ask one answer one. -__-"

13 May 2007

2007-05-13T20:47:00.000+08:00

How fast everything can move.
How much things can change within just a short time.
It applies to alot of things basically.

Oven's bday next week and i think it has been like almost a year since i know him. hahas, time passes so fast! And i seriously think that year 2 was very fun, compared to year 1! Not the classes or friends but just the life i had. I think it was the year that i had alot of attention?! lols. =x Shall not say anymore.

Anyway not sure whether i should get oven anything for his bday? Just as a friend, nothing more. =x Haven't talked much to breakdancer too .. never see him online and i wasn't online much over the weekends but even if we don't talk, i wouldn't be sad?! Because things are different and i just want to know him as a friend, if nothing works out then i'm fine too. =) No special feelings.

Was not going to blog about oven or whatever but instead of something else. hahas and i totally forgot about it. =|

guys guys. zzz.
they think too much.
my friend thinks i'm ignoring and treating him coldly.
erugh, just that i have my quiet moments sometimes. I like to sit back and listen instead of me always talking.

// What to do when he's a good friend of urs?

13 May 2007

2007-05-13T17:15:00.000+08:00

Freakin damn tired!

Friday, came home and went to newton for some dinner/supper stuff with ken they all. I overslept! Was supposed to meet them at 7 and only woke up at 710 after they called and asked where was i. -__- Chiong down, and took the cab down. Reached home at around 2 am plus?!

Woke up at around 9 plus on sat, went wakeboarding then slacked around then reached home around 5 then went out for sushi with family then some frens asked me whether i want go meet them at mos. zzz. Reached home at 5 am! Slept till 1 plus today then went out to buy lunch then cwp.. bought cake for mum. 60 bucks! Gonna order pizza later too.

zzz.
Mad week.
Kinda broke lately!!

This that this.
Chalet at the end of the month!

11 May 2007

2007-05-11T14:28:00.000+08:00

Damn tired today in school.

Haven't slept in class for a loooong time, today just poof and slept away. Took a short nap and felt better already. =)

Later at night still going out ah!
And tml they want go wakeboarding again! @_@

10 May 2007

2007-05-10T22:29:00.000+08:00

Diving daaaaaaaamn shiok.
Even thou just in the swimming pool, was there 1 to 1 sort of intro them? But too few people turned up so we even taught them finning. hahas.

Went up and down the pool.
woho! shiok.

Damn tired now.
=x And he's not online now.
Nerve wrecking ah.

Busy week.
Tml - UT
Weekends - ? Most probably out ah.
Monday - ut and movie.
Tues - Eski bar
Wed - off.
Thurs - diving!

@_@ Busy but i sort of like it? hahas.

10 May 2007

2007-05-10T00:23:00.000+08:00

Just reached home!
So freakin damn tired. Still going to read up on some dive stuff for tml.

Packing my bag for tml or else i wun have the time tml morning. =x
Like packing so much stuff la! @_@ Have to pack my kuku swim suit. Kinda nervous about tml. ahhhhh.

Wtf lar.
He thinks i don't know understand my best friend meh.
zzz. Who is he to criticizes me.
I SHALL not think about it.

09 May 2007

2007-05-09T00:43:00.000+08:00

@_@ Met a perverted guy lately but that's not important anyways.

Had ut after school today!
Forgot to set my hp to silent la! Lucky i put just a beep sound as msg tone, instead of that very long one. =x 420 and he was already at woodlands. -__-" Faster packed bag and went off, zz i walk damn fast la. Then i reach and too many people and i cannot find him, zz end up .. he went strolling in the pasar malam! Don't know where to go, he suggested city hall but kinda tired then he say .. nvm nvm, take cab then not so tired or something like that. -__-" Was so freakin damn hungry, got off the cab and chiong to the HK cafe and had lunch/dinner. The cafe is damn cold la! And i was wearing short shorts. zz. Walked around afterwards, then walked towards boat quay there. Nothing much. =x Just some kuku stuff in-between. Just carried my bag for me and stuff because we were walking so much! So crappy. zz.

Break-dancer is 1987 too!
wahahs. woohoots. I always thought he was younger then me.
kekes.

07 May 2007

2007-05-07T13:07:00.000+08:00

In school and i'm damn bored la.
Nothing to do.
Talking to that wanton-wannabe.

Had such a kuku conversation last night with k.kuku! I don't think alot of people know what i told her last night, hahas. No ones goes around telling people what they did with their boyfriend rite? =x I thought mine was fast, but someone else was faster! =x !!! But i don't think it's all about how fast or what, it's all about the right time and feel. =) zz.

I don't why am i bloggin about this. hahas. But i wouldn't go into details here. =x
Too shy! It's all about going nice and slow.
hahas. okok. i think i stated too much. =x

06 May 2007

2007-05-06T22:45:00.000+08:00

I'm feeling very happy and bouncy!
=)

Feeling all smiles.
I think i will be sleeping with a very big smile tonight!
I can't stop smiling!!

It's damn sweet, thanks!

//
Ps.
It's not about me having a boyfriend! Everyone asks the same thing.
And i'm not in love either but what he did is really sweet.
More then enough to make someone smile like a fool.

06 May 2007

2007-05-06T01:22:00.000+08:00

hahas, it's always nice to hear from an old friend.
=) Random sms from old sec friend, haven't heard from her for near 2 years already. Nice chatting, even thou it was just some short sms chat. Hope to meet up soon! =)

And i wonder if i should warn my friend about this guy. =/

05 May 2007

2007-05-05T22:36:00.000+08:00

pengz.
Chelsea match tickets confirm very ex! Sis say most ex shld be around 200. Cheapest is 80.
=( I think she will be getting the front rows one. zzz

05 May 2007

2007-05-05T21:54:00.000+08:00

Was at school doing fyp today for like almost four hours! All just thinking and coming up with ideas. Gonna sleep right after i watch wo cai tonight, .. corrine you better wake me up like mad tml! =x Later i oversleep.

I need new boardshorts also. =/ One is too tight and the other is kinda too loose?! The force of the draggin water always pulls my shorts down?! -__- There was once when it almost came off! Hahas, speaking of coming off .. there was once, i fell trying to do something and the whole board+binds just slip off my feets. -__-. Imagine the impact. =x

Trying to save money!
I want to buy some stuff.
kekes

05 May 2007

2007-05-05T11:15:00.000+08:00

Going back to school soon.
It took me four alarms, three calls to finally haul me out of bed.
zzz. Guess how tired i was.

Anyway, something to perk me up!
Chelsea is coming! Lampard!
wahahahs. i'm laughing mad.

05 May 2007

2007-05-05T01:24:00.000+08:00

Same timing, bad mood swings.

just fcked up.

I know it's the truth but what the fuck. Do you need to mention it?! I don't normally say such stuff but what the fuck, it's not like you are any better. Although it might be seem just to be normal teasing but what the fuck, it's too much?! I got some self- esteem too.

what the fuck.
it's all my mind can think off. All the $#%@$@. All the worse words ever all in my mind.
I think i'm silly and dumb to even care about this. God. Fark.

There used to be a time when i kept falling into mood swings almost everyday. Then i don't know what happen but i sorted of cheered up more during my yr 2 times. Just hide my mood swings away although they happen like once in a blue moon or pms times.

But fark, now it seems that old times like those are back?! I get mood swings almost everyday or every night. My head just so full of thoughts. But unlike the times when i showed it obviously, now i just hide them and pretend that i'm all smiles.

Some random points.

-I don't need a boyfriend to complete my life so don't ask me to find one because you think i look as if i need some love. Fark, as if you know my love life. i don't need love. I got my friends and my family and that's what matters the most.

-Fark, i don't need great looks or a great bod to attract others. Yah, i know i'm being alittle thick-skin but those who don't know a shit about my life then just shut up because i don't need your pov.

-I hate cowardly guys. What's with the crap that you don't want to do anything when you say that you love the girl so much and just want her to be happy. I don't buy that crap. You can only say you want her to be happy and don't do anything AFTER you tried something like hint her or something. ....... whatever. I don't know how to put down in words about this topic. If i say i don't like that guy and things wouldn't work out, just take my words once and forever and stop asking me about it. Pisses me off like crap. I know i'm hard to please but it's only because i don't like you.

-I wouldn't ditch my friends for my boyfriend. Look at the previous one and you can see. Don't make me bring up that matter, i will drag up past matters even thou they happened ten years ago. No matter how tired i am, i still take the time and effort to hang out with my friends even thou i'm half dead and totally falling asleep soon, call me in the middle of the night when there's a problem and i forgo my sleep. Don't ever say i got new friends and i don't want old friends anymore or what crap.

I'm going to sleep before i list everything out that i can't stand then it'll probably end when the sun rises.

I can't talk to anyone, just kuku.
Makes me feel well even thou we wouldn't even come close to talking about the problem.

05 May 2007

2007-05-05T00:24:00.000+08:00

Damn tired.
Went to town at around 6+.
Saw val and her bf, and she gave me that very kuku look. glanced at me & ben, zzz. She tot he was my bf la. Typical. -___- Was kinda surprised to see her, i always meet friends when i'm wearing like not damn nice and super slack.

Walked around from wisma -> taka -> pacific plaza -> heeren -> pacific plaza -> shaw -> wheelock.

wtf la. So damn tired can, all for ben's boardshorts.
Guy's boardshorts are damn ex and ben is sooooooo skinny! His wasit is only 28! Damn freaking thin for a guy. He got such a flat stomach. zzz.

Was practically dying of hunger.
Had breakfast/lunch at 10 am and then nothing at all, away the way till 10 pm when we went to burger king and ate. Sat down for an hour and talked about some stuff, bgr stuff. hahas. Long time haven't had such a chat with him. But i was so cold in BK even thou i was wearing a jacket!

Hahas. Some funny stuff kept happening.

So tired!
Tml need to go back sch.
Sunday wakeboarding.
Can't sleep till noon.
Mon lesson
Tue lesson+test
Wed out with kuku.
Thurs, got mos event but i don't think i want to go.

It's gonna be a farking mad week.
Off to my msn chats.

04 May 2007

2007-05-04T18:05:00.000+08:00

-_-

I'm so darn hungry la.
Still waiting for ben to finished up with whatever stuff that he has in school then meet him and go town! zz. Get his board shorts.

I'm wearing so darn slack.
Shorts, shirt and one jacket to put my stuff. Short's pocket aren't enough and i'm kinda lazy to bring a bag. =x

So tired.
Don't know gonna do what tml yet.

Sunday - wakeboarding. 10 in the morning! Guess need to wake up around 8. Gonna cab or what. Ain't going to take mrt then bus then mrt then the shuttle bus. Need to do abit of self pampering sometimes. =x

Speaking of wakeboarding, i think i'm gonna be so darn broke la. Not much money left for shopping, go out eat .. still okay. Movies still can. Shopping zzz. I think i wake about two times a month nowdays?! 50 to 70 bucks. Depends whether 3 or 4 people. =x

Shit. need to go out already.

04 May 2007

2007-05-04T01:14:00.000+08:00

I'm fine already.
lols.

Not going to watch spidey 3 tml, nor am meeting kuku tml.
A whole different plan.
Going town again! Third time in 5 days. @_@
Ben needs to go get some board shorts, so accompanying him. =x

04 May 2007

2007-05-04T00:00:00.000+08:00

Hahas.
Feeling down = finding my best mate for a chat.
Doesn't matter what we talk about, just feels better.

Hope will be able to meet up tml!

Feeling kinda fcked up now.
I think i got too much going on but i don't know how to express them out? Just stuck in me.
Anyone got the same feeling? So bloody damn bothered by stuff that you feel like @$#@$#W smashing throwing stuff but when you want to tell someone all about it, you don't know what to say .. no words to describe what's going on.

It all just bottles up! Like an overflow bottle, the overflow parts comes out but soon and easily, it overflows again! Fark. Hate this feeling. Don't feel like going to school tml. Feel like staying at home and rot. Don't feel like doing anything. Like so sian la. Everything so fcked up.

This that that this. Everything.
Pushing me over the limit. The max of how much i can take.
My temper is still as what the fark as ever but at least i don't lash out like i used to anymore.

03 May 2007

2007-05-03T22:38:00.000+08:00

There's only so much i can take.
A limit to everything.
I'm fine with all the teasing and stuff, but topics don't need to be 90% about him?! This guy friend is really zzz.

I don't know how to write down in words how i feel about him.
zzz. Abit mad.

Sometimes abit irritating.
Not the kinda guy that i want.

03 May 2007

2007-05-03T19:05:00.000+08:00

Just finished watching 200 pounds beauty.
DAMN nice touching movie. =)
And the actress's voice is damn power!
I got the whole soundtrack. hahas.

Beauty lies beneath.
It isn't what or how we look like.
At least what the movie says.

but in real life, sad to say .. looks play a big part?!
Everyone is attracted to pretty babes and handsome dudes.
And the average ones just get left behind, need less to say the below average ones.

How i wish i'm as pretty as the actress! wahahs. =x
And that voice too.
Me and my crap. =x

I know i'm fine just the way i am. =)
At least i got character!

hahas. now i'm really talking crap!

02 May 2007

2007-05-02T23:00:00.000+08:00

I'll just say that i have moved on ... until i'm reminded of you again.

01 May 2007

2007-05-01T21:52:00.000+08:00

Just friends but something silly always makes me smile.
Simple as just friends.
But i take a step back every time he makes a step forward ( step forward doesn't mean those bf/gf types?, just those maybe those situations just you and me blah blah? not sure how to say? ) , i don't know why am i reacting this way?
It makes no sense at all?

Feels like i'm running away from something but i don't know what?
There's nothing to run away from too?
Maybe it's the effect or cause from everything that's happening.
Fark.

JT's lovestoned has such a nice beat to it.
Makes you feel like dancing all night.

01 May 2007

2007-05-01T00:21:00.000+08:00

hahas.
the person's face was O_O when i asked whether i could try the M size.
-__- The M and S size has hardly any difference at all!

28 April 2007

2007-04-28T13:04:00.000+08:00

Like what the fuck la.

Maid did something that wasn't allowed.
Neighbors asked to come into my room and she let them without asking me first. zzz. They were complaining about the aircon stuff, blowing at directly at their room. Or more specific, the daughter's one .. the mother was better. Telling the daughter that it can't be helped, my air con is just built like that. Only got one direction to blow what, the daughter was like wtf, but you see my room .. blah blah call hdb what crap. Wanted to %#%#%# at her.

My friend has the same problem but she say no choice, so just wipe the wall every month. Can't she do the same too. zzzzzzz. It's not my fault what. Diao.

Too bad, my dad and mum went out or else sure chaos.
zzzzzz. My mum already quite ^%#%#%@!

//
Yesterday was fun!
Total madness.
But i threw up until my stomach feels so inverted. =|

///
My fren is quite funny la!
hahas.

27 April 2007

2007-04-27T10:22:00.000+08:00

Like wtf.

I just can't stop myself from thinking.
I just want to forget everything that has happen and move on but ....

Ken says that i put too much pressure to forgetting. -__-"

26 April 2007

2007-04-26T13:08:00.000+08:00

只要跟你在一起就足够

Random thoughts of him.
***************** =/ I don't know la.
damn it. damn all these feelings. damn all these thoughts that i wished never appeared.

Tempers flying lately.
Keep %$#%$#%$ at home.

25 April 2007

2007-04-25T18:47:00.000+08:00

Went blading just now with some frens.
Lucky got to some shelter before it started raining like mad!!

Something random but was reading thru our old msn chat logs. Don't ask me why but my itchy hands went to re-read them. I no longer have the very very old ones when we just knew each other, the ones that are really full of him talking and stuff. It brought back so many memories and it made me feel like a idiot even more then ever. Things were obvious at that time, but maybe we are abit different. He says things indirectly, and i don't always get it immediately, i only catch the main point way too late. I still see him around sometimes but seldom like only once a week?! And for less then a min. He isn't very good-looking, my heart doesn't skip a beat when i see him but i feel happy when i see him?! I don't know whether if i'm really over him or what. I'm over oven but i still feel happy and bouncy when i talk to him face to face. lols. But oven and him, the feeling is kinda different. The happiness is of something different?

Impossible is impossible.
My thoughts are just nothing. All empty, with no possibility of it happening.
But i still hope we can go out as friends sometime.

24 April 2007

2007-04-24T21:48:00.000+08:00

Life is full of fucked up shit.

23 April 2007

2007-04-23T21:56:00.000+08:00

Haven't been bloggin lately.
Kinda busy and tired.

School then most of the time, i have stuff after school. Either it's dinner with some frens but seldom the case or else it's fyp after school!

Had fyp today, tml too.
I'm so damn tired la. And now it's just the ideas part, i can't imagine when we are actually doing it. @_@ Weekends are gonna be committed to fyp too.

Fyp drives everyone nuts.
It's so damn tiring too nowdays.
Days are kinda different from what they used to be.
My brain is forever working. School stuff, personal stuff.
It never ends.

16 April 2007

2007-04-16T22:25:00.000+08:00

Feeling kinda crap now.

Went down to meet fren just now at around 7+, came back at around 10+. Talked a few stuff, mainly just that matter of hers. Drives me kinda nuts. Was feeling so tired, my brain almost just auto-shut down while trying to listening. Sorry man, but i was really very tired. Too tired and had to think what to say and stuff, it isn't easy.

My own shared of fked up problems.
I'm not really the type who opens up and shares, just kinda hard for me?
Feeling a little much nowdays.

Just talk and crap away and pretend that all of it isn't there, just deal with it when i'm alone.

// Some random thing.
Saw you today and i don't know whether if it was just coincidence or what. You ducked away when you saw me. Is this how it's suppose to be?

But that^ isn't what's bothering me.
I just don't really care. I got other problems, headache.

16 April 2007

2007-04-16T18:36:00.000+08:00

School was madness today.
So many people, never got to eat!!

I only had sandwich. @_@
With veggie! eeek.

So random things happened today on the way to school. It was damn pai sey?! zzz, and two girls were looking when what happened took place. 1+2 = ... zzzzzzzzzz. On the bus somemore. -___-!!!! It was a little too close.

// Suddenly thought of him. His birthday today which i just realized not long ago.

14 April 2007

2007-04-14T00:35:00.000+08:00

Went back to school for some movie ce thing, slacked and ate at mac for awhile then went home! Fell asleep and got woke up by jj, ask me to go geylang and eat some stuff. zzz, woke up and changed and met him! =) ... and geylang is so far away from yew tee!! But i don't really wander there alot, =/ .. some parts of geylang is abit umm.

Yew tee or the area around here has a lack of late night snacks! The nice food are quite far away, and let's not mention bukit timah. -___-" Now i'm feeling too full to sleep!

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13 April 2007

2007-04-13T02:02:00.000+08:00

I'm VERY thirsty. I drank like two cups of milk and it doesn't seem to be enough?

It's sickening.
I don't know what to do. I don't want to make the same mistake again but yet i don't want to risk the way things are now.

Can things just be as easy as 1 2 3?
I trust my gut feeling like mad but now what i feel and my guts feel is totally different! I can't afford mistakes. Once i take that jump, there will be no turning. I don't even know whether that jump is good or bad!

zzz. I'm gonna to bed!
Right now, i'm still having trouble waking up at 11 am!
Gosh.

No use thinking and thinking now when i'm abit @_@.

12 April 2007

2007-04-12T23:44:00.000+08:00

Went to lot 1 today and got a few stuff, my stuff and some for my sis's school. zzz. And i saw yu xiu, damn hilarious. I wanted to walked pass this lane and she was crouching down looking at some stuff and i didn't really looked and just excuse me. And when she said sorry, then i walked away and saw her from the side. Ah has! So kuku.

Mad things happened today! =x
Tissue roses are a little fragile. =/

12 April 2007

2007-04-12T01:03:00.000+08:00

Went out with ht yesterday. Walked all over town then went off to vivo. Legs were practically falling apart when we left vivo. Saw this ex-class mate from rp who quit school. =( Saw him walked pass while eating at hk cafe .. and he scared us when he suddenly pop his head in! -__- Our seats were outside, bad seats! Had wanton mee+milo dino and ht had spaghetti+milo dino. =/ Combination alittle weird. And i feel like eating mee pok! zzzz. Lucky didn't walked pass crocodile today, or else might see him or he might see me, whatever it is.

Going to stay at home and rest today or might go swimming for awhile!
Going back to school on friday for some activities.
School starts on monday!! =(
Haven't bought a new bag, can't seem to find any that catches my eye. No nice tees too. No nice jeans too!! It's either waaaaaaaay too x or not really suitable for school. -__- And i feel like cutting my hair!! Sometimes it's nice but sometimes it's not!! Roars! Irritates me half to death.

On second thought, i think i need to go out tml. Suddenly remember that i got some stuff that i need to buy. zzz! Probably go in the evening.

!!! The chelsea match yesterday was .. wtf omg! What a last min goal!!! Lampard wasn't playing very well, could have done so much better! .. And that man u match was really ... zzz, so many goals!! Semi-finals already! woooho!

Got no time for the zoo trip. =/
Drained ALOT of money from my atm this month.

Ps; .. did you notice that you laugh like mad when you are with your close friends even if it might be nothing much?! And my laugh-like-mad is really .. zzz. Those that you don't care whether people care.

// Suddenly dreamt of olaie last night and the night before too. It's been so long already, maybe because what happened lately? I wish the past would just stayed as the past! Then i wouldn't have to think so much!

11 April 2007

2007-04-11T00:53:00.000+08:00

Here am i, sitting in my living room .. watching tv, msn-ing .. waiting for prison break to load so i can watch! And also mainly waiting for 240, so i can watch the match between chelsea and valencia! QF!

Hope i wouldn't end up sleeping on the sofa again! Need to wake up by 130 tml. Feeling kinda @_@ already, might take a little nap on the sofa and wake up at 240. I hope lampard scooooooores tonight! A goal is crucial!!

Hahas, remember that post i had about the girls/guys to avoid dating? More more that i saw. I'll just cut and paste a few.

-control freaks
-ah bengs
-not serious in a r/s
-always in a play play mood
-act shuai buai shuai
-act cute buai cute
-too drama
-guys who are very stingy.. or expects gals to go dutch during pat tor
-flirts
-too handsome ones
-bengs
-ti kors
-disgusting ah peks
-toot toot ones

?! toot toot ones?! LOL. Maybe the girl's point of view is different but toot toot ones are cute! The blur and not-very-sure-what's going on look. 1 and yew tee guy has that look esp 1. But i wouldn't get to see 1 anymooooore, he graduated. =(

frm a guy's POV,major turn offs are materialistic gals, air head bimbos who ask tonnes of qns w/o getting anything their heads even when provided with answers, gals who dun bother to groom themselves, fickled minded gals, smoking gals (no offence to those smokers, just something personal) etc.

and major turn offs for guys IMO, MCP, idealistics pricks who come out with crap love philosophies on oh how a gal shld treat a guy and vice versa, cassonova wannabes when they look like crap, men who cannot speak proper English, flirts, playboys (tho some gals simply find them irresistible) wishy wash guys, guys with no guts, guys who puff smoke from their nostrils n mouths, guys who reek of cig smoke and of cos those tards who are super optimistic until they almost appear to be fake.

hahas! Men who can't speak proper english ... out for me too. I don't expect him to speak PERFECT english but just well enough, not broken. Smoking is fine so long you aren't smoking 24/7 or smoking so much that it seems that your entire life depends on it!

10 April 2007

2007-04-10T22:44:00.000+08:00

hahas!
Going for movie ce this friday, watch some bloody movie and get ce points. =)

... Talking to fyp team mate online. =/ Don't really know her well, but i guess everything should be fine. =)

Going town tml!
Slack slack, walk around .. see anything to buy.

I bet tml morning will be abit noisy. =|

09 April 2007

2007-04-09T22:18:00.000+08:00

It's been a bad day.
So MANY bloody things happening, so much going on.

Everything is driving me nuts.
There's only so much i can carry.